Why I've failed?

As the new year approaches most of us decide that we'll make changes in our lives. Though we swear by them, many of us know that these resolutions won't stick past February. When I look at my past resolutions, I know why I've failed. I either make the resolutions too specific, i.e. "I will do this blank every Tuesday." This is just unrealistic. Anything can happen during the week that will disrupt my plans. One week off track and I'm doomed. So I've learned that scheduling my entire year at one time is just plain crazy. Secondly, I fail because I'm not specific enough or in other words I don't plan out how I'm going to complete the tasks. I always say I want to save money but never really define it. How much? How often? So I put away some and then never do it again. Now I know that I must gove myself clear instructions and steps to take in order to reach my goal or actually be on track with my resolution. With that said, I will now begin the tasks of making my New Year's Resolutions.

M.I.A.

Well I've been missing in action for quite a while now. What can I say other than that I was super busy. My girls are healthy and getting bigger everyday. School is almost over. Look I'm taking pilates and swimming in the spring, clearly I can not stretch this out any longer. work was actually not bad over the holidays. I only had a few people that made me ill but most of them just made me laugh. I guess all the warnings on the news about gift returns have prepared people so this year they aren't as stressed. well hopefully the new year will be great and bring more blogging.

Can You Live Without It?

Well of course you can but do you suffer when you don't have it? I know I know slow down and tell you what I'm talking about right? Last Friday my computer blew up. I was just sitting here with my baby girl ripping a cd when I hear three loud pops and a flame shoots from the back of my computer. Not a spark ladies but an actual flame. I was very upset because money is very tight right now and christmas is just around the corner, clearly buying another computer was not on my agenda. Everyone who asked me how I was doing that day got the same response when they asked how I was doing, "Horrible!!" Then came my knight on a white stallion with horns blowing. Okay well maybe that's a little exagerated but that's what it felt like. I mentioned my dilemma to one of my coworkers and he said, "Chill L it sounds like the power supply," which apparently are notorious for blowing out on HP computers. I take it to the repair shop where they try to sell me a new computer, of course. Finally they sold me the power supply ($35) which my coworker put in for me on his lunch break I might add (isn't he lovely, isn't he wonderful). I get home and guess what? MY COMPUTER LIVES!!! What's the moral of this story? Well I went without my computer for a whole 36 hours and felt like my entire world had come to an end. I'm in college so I do need it for schoolwork but I could easily go to my mom's and use hers. That wasn't the point do you ladies understand that my first reaction was that I couldn't even find out the repair store's hours because I couldn't look it up on the internet. How pathetic am I? I still had a telephone and the phone book which I eventually used to contact the store. This experience taught me that I rely on my computer for socialization and entertainment way to much. I have vowed to not surf the internet at least one day a week to decrease my addiction. In the end I lived but yes I did suffer.

I Must Be A Bad Mommy

YesterdayIdid something terrible. I think I crushed my six year old daughetr heart for the rest of her life (well at least for ten minutes which is the world to her). What did I do that could be so horrible that it would make an innocent child cry? I told her that Santa died....

Did your jaws just drop? Well so did hers but I quickly followed up with the fact that Santa had died a long time ago. This is how I started our discussion to explain that, "Yes, the big kids were right. The man in the mall is not the person that leaves you presents every year. I explained to her that there was once a man that delivered presents to children on christmas and our way of honoring that tradition is why we hold on to Santa. Santa exists he's just not who she expected, Santa is mommy and daddy. She then wanted to know where the presents came from and I told her. Do you know she asked how I purchased everything in one night? This child believed that a man rode around in a sleigh and delivered presents to all the children in the world but could not possibly believe that mommy can buy everything in one night. Of course I don't but I've gotta leave her some hope. I realy don' know why I told her now instead of waiting until after the holidays when she would have a whole year to forget other than that I didn't want to deal with what the older kids said again this year. I explained to her that other children probably don't know so no matter what not to tell them. She cried a little and afterwards I cried to. Learning the truth about Santa means my baby is growing up and now I want to press rewind and start all over. Well at least we can still hold on to the Tooth Fairy a little while longer. Oh by the way baby girl was not happy to find out that I was eating her cookies.

Where did the money go?

I hate when I spend more money tha I should have and that is exactly what I have done again. Now I have to dig myself back out of the hole which is nothing new it's just frustrating. I'll make it though just like I always do. I'll be so glad when I get out of school and get a real job so that I can spend time with my girls the way I want to without worrying about bills.

Idlewild

Me and RG went to the movies to see Idlewild and I loved it. I've always been an Outkast fan so I may have been a little biased but no other group would have come up with a movie idea that wasn't bades on the normal hood stuff so you have to give them credit for that. I plan on going to see it again and purchasing it when it comes out of DVD. I gotta support my boys. It's a must see.

Busy Busy Busy

So it was my plan to post something everyday but I have been su busy with the start of the semester that I don't feel like doing anything when I get home. This semester is looking like it's going to be a busy one. Two of my professors want me to work with companies meaning I have to actually go there to do the research. I am not feeling that at all cause that's something else to take away from my family time. I do have good news though. I foud out that I can get a fee waiver for the GRE, graduate school entrance exam. That saves me $130 but also means that I better do well because they only pay for it once. Wish me luck.

Back to School

Yesterday was my first day back in school so my schedule was a little to hectic to do any posts. So far so good. My geology class is going to be boring but I knew that two weeks ago when the professor sent out an e-mail. He tried to be funny during the whole class but needless to say he was not funny at all. My second class was Theories of Social Interaction, which sounds dull but I think it's going to be a interesting class. I'm on campus right now but my my first class doesn't start for another twenty minutes. Class starts at 8:30 but AG can't be dropped off until 8:45 at her school so I had to leave the car with RG and I rode with my mom this morning. She works on campus and has to be here at 7:30 so I'm here very early. I overslept this morning but luckily I laid everything out last night so I didn't have to run around the house too much. I'm nervous about leaving JG at home with RG because he doesn't have the best patience with crying but I guess they will adjust just fine. I like to hold her all day and he doesn't want to spoil her. AG was spoiled but she went to daycare at 10 weeks old so they broke her from wanting to be held all day. RG will have to do the same with JG. I just can't stand to hear her cry. Well I'm going to head on down to my class. Will post later.